marriage prep

been readin up on the marriage prep courses since the last time we went to meet up wif JP n she mentioned tt it would b gd to go. so sent out a few emails to ask more abt the course outline, the prices n group size etc. tink we will go for the indiv one, cos more personnal. dear say if the gp size is small we can oso consider takin up the gp one too, cos gp one is cheaper. depends la, sm family service center ('fsc') charges the same nett rate for indiv n gp, jus tt indiv package gets more time spent with the counseller.

anyway, we r down to the following choices:
1) Hougang Sheng Hong
2) Daybreak @ Yishun
3) Tanjong Pagar FSC

oh ya, there will b $70 rebate upon completion of the course so stil nt so bad. bt the rebate is fixed, even if u take e most exp course it is stil $70. *bleah*

further updates on rings

decided to custom make the rings, cos it seems lk buying outside takes abt 2.5mths for them to get it in our sizes n it would b too late 4 tt. custom make can oso solve the prob of our rings havin to be one delicate n one chunky at the same time, hahaha....

went down to the wholesaler (is tt wats its called? dunooo ;p) n then they told us to get designs ready then they can make. they oso dun hav a lot of samples 4 us to choose, so its diff to visualise. ended up looking at many mags tt were there. went hm n surf online for designs n came up with these shortlisted ones:






not bad hor? hahhahaha!!

rings rings rings

been lookin ard for rings, n goin to diff shops to look at designs n prices. seems lk the guys one r v simple n nt as outstanding or decorative as the gals. anyway, dear wanted a thicker ring design, smtin lk a particular tiffany design. bt cos my fingers so small, the idea was dropped. so mayb we try get smtin tt would b delicate 4 my fingers n a similar matchin one for his, bt thicker?

set my eyes on a channel set half eternity type ring. duno ist too flashy?

sm1 posted tis in forum, her set of weddin rings. ist too flashy wen matched with a solitaire?

reservist

dear in reservist today n tom. gonna b a boring n lonely wkend.

work is gettin

stressful.........................................................

yay, wkend!

weee! wkend! gonna exercise the option n place deposit tom liao. appeal against hdb on the HLE went thru n we got the HLE, so tom gonna meet mr ang n sign the official documents liao. then mon can submit to hdb to approve. gonna bring my parents to take a look at the hse, cos they haven look at it yet.

$5k cheque tom. heartpain. hahahaha...

oh ya, we started lookin at possible ROM dates too. estimate another 3mths to get keys, so ROM hav to be before tt. got go bridal show on 5th to look at ROM packages avai, bt nothin 'reali super great deal' tier leh. so jus take the materials 4 reference loh. gonna hav to b more active to look into other places for the ROM. budget $500 seems too too low liao, hahahahha

busy busy cny

wa, busy busy gg to so mani places 4 cny... bt the ang bao lk nt much diff fm last yr leh :(

anywayz, i bought tis nice trad paper cutting 4 wedding. got 2 mandarin ducks n a double happiness word. nice nice!!! v hapi cos i wanted to get it fm e start already, i mean nt tis particular design la, bt the paper cutting la. wanted to buy e big one, bt nt practical...

lk got a lot

of stuff to do at work. then i feel so stress cos i duno hw to do those reports n summary. stil tryin to 'feel' ard the work, n hav to rely much on other jobs' avai info to do my stuff. tink the work tt i generated a bit 'kiddo' n nt up to standard leh. how how... feel lost leh. cos i join at weird time, din manage to get formal trainin abt wat to do. oso cos my position is nt entry-level, so the expected level of work fm me is higher. makes me more stress, cos i dun hav to foundation to do the work in the first place. stress stress.

bt i tell myself to relax n tink positive. at least i'm nt gg thru peak now. at least i can c sun wen i go hm. since many many yrs in january tt is nv a possibilty.

n i oso hav to thank my new job 4 givin me many opportunities tt would nv been possible before.

so i mus appreciate wat i hav now. contented.

hapi cny!!

hapi cny everyone!!

hope i can get many many more ang baos tis yr, cos last yr to get them liao!!!!! ;p

lobo day

today is quite lobo. been readin up n doin admin stuff so far, n today hav to read up on next wk's client. so read up abt oil industy + JSOX. had a trainin in the aftn on JSOX too. got the impression tt my colleagues r v out-spoken, even in front of a mgr. hmmm... so diff fm my prev unit. no one dares to ans qn n jus look dwn wen any1 ask qn, hahahah...

hope work will b ok next wk, cos real work starts! jia you jia you!

new day at work

today is first day at work! so nervous, duno wat to expect. at least the hse ting is settled, can put my mind at ease to concentrate on work. my assigned buddy showed me ard the system n some of the workin papers. gonna hav to read up on sm prior trainin materials to familarise myself.

then laptop got prob, cant connect to wireless no matter hw long i tried/waited. so took the laptop to IT to service n wen i cm back, the ofc is empty n no1 ard to lunch wif. so dear saved e day n came over to eat wif me :) muacks!

we put deposit

for the hse today. aft much struggle and talks and considerations. its gonna b a huge cash over valuation, so we gonna hav to save up a lot for tt amt. heartpain abt the money. at least we can save up on the renovation cos nt gg to do much since stay for 3yrs only. anyway, we hav until the 15th to decide if we wana exercise the option. for the timebeing we can speed up on the HLE and stuff.

dear say its a gd new start to the new year, lets cheers to tt!

its 3.30am

and i cant sleep.

lotsa tots on my mind. i miss dear. i wana hug him and feel him close to me. i wana tell him its ok and everytin will b fine. i wana share tis bittersweet taste with him now.

dun noe wat to say now............ went thru mani emotional swings today, rite up to now.

"wen u get something, u lose something" an old man told the korean drama leading couple this during the episode tt i was watchin jus now. he started with "there's no free lunch in this world" and ask the leading actress (who is the mistress) if she really wan her wish (which is to be with the leading actor). when she said yes and tt she believe they will b together, he said "u will get ur wish". n she was hapi to hear tt, tho the guy was skeptical. turns out tt she reali got to b with the guy, bt is thru swoppin souls with the wife (ie she is in the wife's body n vice versa). such is the twist of fate.

now its 3.50am liao. i dun dare to tink abt tom.......

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