unprepared

i dun tink i'm prepared to have a child. thinkin abt handling a kid and having to put the kid first for the rest of my life... dun tink i can juggle my work n family requirements, at least definately not my current job. it scares me to tink abt it. already sacrificed my career for the wedding, to have to sacrifice the rest of my life for the kid? i duno. educating and nuturing the kid is also a problem, because there is definately going to be a generation gap. i mean, ya the easiest is when its a baby cos there is min requirements. bt wen it grows up, woah, a total different story loh. gonna hav to change lifestyle, furniture, habits, everythin to accomodate it. n i dun tink i'm ready for all that now. i like the life now, carefree and sometimes single (or currently single, since dear is away for 3wks), and i cant imagine having to put down all that. sigh, plus all the negative things abt a housewife (naggy, auntie, husband hav affair, husband think wife is stupid, old etc). sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

its reali the modern ironic cycle, self-love of individual vs self-sacrifice.